Day 7 - NOT IN THE MOOD

How I'm feeling tonight after a crazy, busy weekend.

Does anyone else have to resort to yelling at their kids to go to sleep, keep quiet, stop asking for things, etc., etc?

I feel overwhelming guilt that the last thing they hear after I have spent 10 minutes reading Rumpelstiltskin to them is my voice (now croaky) at a very high pitch dreadful sound saying to them "go to sleep or else".  Why do I even have to negotiate, and why do they not get it after SEVERAL YEARS, you HAVE TO GO TO BED!!!

This is where I am missing DF1 because if he yells at them to "go to sleep", they don't say another word, what's with that and how do I obtain it?

I sit here now feeling awful, the dreaded "Mother Guilt" has started to overtake me and now I feel like I have to be a Fairy Godmother tomorrow to make up for their last thoughts before bed being that of a "meanie mom".  What's even worse is I fell into the "I have spent these past two weeks making sure every need of yours has been met and what about me"?  Oh for goodness sake, how immature is that and how silly, my kids don't get it for the simple reason they are kids and all they know is it's my job to keep them happy but I STILL DID IT and now I feel like crap.

So, here's hoping that things fall back into some sort of normality tomorrow with school starting and me being able to have a few hours to stop and just be.

How I wish my kids thought of me tonight...........

How they probably think of me tonight...............

TTFN

p.s., I have now just had to yell again at GC1 because, get this, she is singing and won't go to sleep.  How do you yell at a child for singing?  It's breaking me apart but I said it's bedtime and it's a school day tomorrow and they have to be quiet!  She even socked one below the belt and said "mummy hates me", man, where do they get this from, it's like being stabbed in the heart!

Day 6

Yeah, it's the weekend!  Wait a minute, what difference does that make when you are a D.I.D.O, none, especially during school holidays.  I'm currently at a friends, looking after their three kids and my two for a break (no, I'm not lying), my kids (and me) are excited to be in a different environment (having a sleep over as well) and all the kids play well and are currently watching a movie (quietly) and having some sushi and chips, interesting combo!

So, have learned that I have to keep up on everything or else this is the result, this is my bed and it's covered in folded  laundry and no, I'm not terribly worried about the folding, come to think of it, I don't iron either.  Thank goodness I or DF1 doesn't have to sleep in it tonight!



This first week has been a harsh reality at how unorganized I am and where the leaks are in my "ship" of a home.  I will prevail and overcome this and come out the other side a stronger more organized and focused person (I'm silently excited about this).

So, there is always a silver lining in everything and I'm finding many in this new adventure, first step conquering the laundry, next the kitchen, then the kids room/toys and wait for it THE GARAGE, ok maybe shouldn't be thinking Mt. Everest when I'm only able to walk down the street at the moment but they always say,  a journey of a thousand miles begins with the first step (or something like that).



Not my house but at the moment it certainly feels like it, here's to posting a much nicer image in the months to come.

TTFN

Some days we just need a little reminder

I totally get kids saying "are we there yet, are we there yet"?  Because I'm thinking the same way, "is it Monday yet, is it Monday yet"?  Don't get me wrong I adore my children but I really need for school holidays to finish because I have almost forgotten that my first name isn't Mom!

Amazingly enough though, kids have been quite good today, I just heard GC2 asking BC1 for help and he said "anytime" but then corrected himself and changed it to "anytime that I decide I want to help you, ok", I so wish I could use that line and it was acceptable.

My main checklist today was:

* Morning - feed children

* Mid Morning - check they are still breathing

* Lunch - feed children

* Mid Afternoon - convince them that's it's totally cool to have an afternoon sleep

*Evening - feed children, put them to bed and pray they sleep in

Did notice one small thing today, we had a visit from a dear friend today and both children proceeded to rough house and play and climb all over him and it just reminded me of how much their daddy does let them do this when he is at home.  They both also told me that they miss daddy because he plays with them and that I was always to busy to play because I had to cook and clean all the time, argh!!

TTFN

What's the date today?

Day 4 - Why am I doing this, remind me again?

6:00 pm and I wish my kids were asleep because I am (well, just about, more like sleep walking at the moment).  Fed and washed, teeth brushed, pj's on now just waiting, waiting, waiting, waiting, I miss the day's when BC1 didn't know how to tell time, once it was dark it could be "bedtime" if you think about it but now, it's not until it's the actual "time of bed" according to BC1.

I bid you farewell for today because my brain has signed off and now I'm just waiting for the kids too!

TTFN

I hope this isn't really true but something tells me that some people feel a wee bit guilty at the moment, glass houses people, glass houses!

LET PEOPLE HUG YOU

ENOUGH SAID

A Few Cracks

So, GC2 (new abbreviation, Girl Child 2) is in bath and say's "leave the door open Mummy in case daddy comes home while I'm still in it"!

BC1 (new abbreviation, Boy Child 1), says, "this is the worst day ever (he crashed several times on the scooter), when daddy gets home I will tell him all about it and ask why he didn't fix my scooter".

Please accept my apologies in advance to all my vegan friends but half a side of beef downstairs needed to be cut, across the grain.  No problem but the grain was constantly changing and my DF1 who knows all about cutting beef was not here to assist.  Small gloat, I did it and think I did a good job, if not, stew for all of us for months.

Having to race out to the shops to pick up a few key ingredients needed for dinner only to have to load up kids in the car just to get some Greek yoghurt and eggs, much easier to do when DF1 is home.  I'm sure this problem will not be an issue once school starts back, I will have plenty of time to clean the house do the laundry and shopping and mending and.................you get my point!

Skype is currently not available out in the middle of nowhere (who would have thought, is anyone picking up on my sarcasm) along with telephone "bars" so our communication has been brief and to the point via a borrowed phone, i.e., "Hi, how was your day, me, good, kids are alive, no major injuries, dogs been fed, hope you are well, talk to you later, bye, yes, I took the bins out, oh, Love you" Click!  Isn't it ironic, we were given an original Morris Code device today, wonder how that would work?

Seriously though, we are settling and I don't dwell on the fact that this is going to be my life for the next several years because there are a lot of wonderful things to look forward to and the money, well, isn't that why we are doing it?

TTFN

Of course I'm fine, just looking after a few extra kids today, no problem.